Friday, November 25, 2011
From NH to Shenandoah VA, Raleigh NC, Nashville TN, Ruston LA, New Orleans LA, Austin TX, Tucson AZ, and Los Angeles CA, Jude and I drove. The trip was more than a drive, it was an experience. We had conversations that sliced down to our guts and others that stretched to the stars. Laughter (and a few tears!) filled the ride.
The trip was the perfect transition to move back to Los Angeles, yet I'm still terrified as hell being back here. When I left in May 2010, I was dead inside. I willingly cut my dreams free, convinced they were lingering relics of childhood with no place in adult life. Boy was I wrong.
My geographic wanderings served as a stimulus for self-realization. I grew leaps and bounds and then some. I squashed the voice that continually told me who I am not and who I cannot be. Sadly, it wasn't until this past year that I realized how much that voice disempowered me in my life. Yes, I grew leaps and bounds, but the greatest realization was knowing the person I really want to become and truly understanding how to get there. So after 1.5 years of gut-wrenching exploration, I have come face to face with my former self, and I am paralyzed with fear. I am ready to launch but fear Los Angeles like superman does kryptonite. I just need to understand that it was myself, not Los Angeles or anybody else, who allowed me to forget myself. Yet no matter how far I have come since I left, I look into the mirror here in Los Angeles and wonder if I have internalized my progress. I am staring at my locked door wondering if I truly am this exhausted, or if I'm equally fearful to open the door and confront my former self. Regardless, I'm going to get some sleep and kick my butt into high-gear tomorrow. It is time to take action! Stay tuned...
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
The time has come for the final adventure, where the journey comes full circle. After 1.5 years of crazy experiences in Alaska, Shenandoah, the Virgin Islands, and New Hampshire, I am driving back to Los Angeles to live once again. I am returning to the city where I lost my passion and drive for life, and rightfully so, part of me is apprehensive.
In 1.5 year of adventure, I grew in incredible ways. I faced countless obstacles and difficulties, but continually prevailed. The year of adventure came with numerous achievements, and as I hop in the car today to begin the drive, I truly have become a force in life to be reckoned with (finally!). I know that I will keep achieving and continue adventuring and that I will not let myself lose my passion for life ever again.
And on that note, day one of the road-tripping adventure finally begins. I'll be updating soon. Over and out....